> I'm finally in a relationship, something i've wanted for so long, and the weight
> of giving myself wholy to it is clashing with my fear of getting hurt too deeply
> if i do, specially after so many long years longing for closeness to anyone,
> injecting so much of my own lifeforce into that ideal. I'm afraid to get too
> close and losing all the power i've concentrated on that if things don't work
> out.
>

Glad to hear you've got someone. Maybe it'll help cure your unhealthy obsession with Goatse (maybe. Unlikely, though. I think my wife is starting to become curious why I keep changing the wallpaper on the computer to be Goatse whenever I log on :( ). Don't worry too much about getting cut deep, just go with the flow.

I got burned pretty bad in a previous relationship but then I met the girl that I wound up marrying, and it all just worked out perfect.